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Becoming Captain Snorkel~Diddie

Becoming Captain Snorkel~Diddie

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I distinctly remember the day my Aunt pushed me into a crashing wave on the shores of San Diego to “remedy” my intense fear of the ocean.  I was 4 years old, and my very young parents had just been divorced.  My mom took custody of my little sister and me, and joined the Airforce in her best effort to take care of us.  Unfortunately, it meant that I had to stay with my relatives while she endured boot camp.  Of course, I misunderstood and thought my mom had left me.  I was devastated and began to develop a fear of practically everything in the midst of this separation anxiety.

The ocean, in it’s mysterious, overwhelming power, terrified me. Needless to say, my Aunt’s push didn’t help.  It only led to my choking down what seemed like a gallon of salt water in between panic-stricken sobs that would later have my little face purple with broken blood vessels. I felt betrayed by my family and violated by the Mother Sea. Lost in my own abyss of hurt, I carried this insult with me for way too long.  It took many years of troubled living to sort out my messy pile of resentments. Like waves of the ocean, hard lessons would come crashing into my world as I chose to act from fear instead of love.  Miraculously, a breaking point occurred in 2000. My first step was made toward true healing as I entered sobriety.

I had a badass of a spiritual mentor who put me on a fast-track plan of brave actions.  She insisted that I learn how to swim- literally. Desperate to feel better, I followed her directions with vigor. Every day, for several months, I took to the shallow lane at the YMCA. To my surprise, I became a fairly decent swimmer. My inner mermaid was ignited!

In my second year of sobriety, a few close buds and I created our own mini-triathon. The Southeastern coast of North Carolina was fierce that afternoon, but I was determined to follow through. Something happens when you hit a tipping point.  I was done relinquishing my life to fear. I plunged into that water and sliced through the charging waves with all of my child-like might. Halfway through the swim, I nearly fainted as the chop kept tossing me around. My swim-mate grabbed hold of me, and we took it slowly, together, the rest of the way. Key word: together. My soul opened up to community – a new family of my own choosing, and I found that I never had to face my fears alone again.

Flash forward to my 11th year of sobriety as I snorkeled for the very first time on a Sweet trip to Isla Mujeres, Mexico.  It couldn’t have been a *sweeter* experience. My Dear One witnessed my initial head-duck into the water as I squealed like a giddy little girl.  The reef was alive and dancing with spectacular color. I had never seen anything quite like it before. This was the beginning of a whole new chapter in my life. Since then, I’ve explored The Great Barrier Reef in Australia, and just recently (& quite reluctantly) returned from 20 magical days on the Big Island of Hawai’i.  I am a changed woman. From a frightened little girl to Captain Snorkel~Diddie, my courage outweighs my fears today!

Feel free to peruse my photos, (taken by my brand new Coolpix underwater camera) and bare witness to the glorious sea-life of Hawai’i! If you need some help in planning YOUR snorkel adventure, I strongly suggest www.bigisland.org.

Captain Snorkel~Diddie

The big Island of Hawai'i is THE place to get your snorkel groove on! Check out bigisland.org to make your own snorkelicious adventure dreams come true!

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Also, if you want more tips on some of the BEST of the Big Island experience, be sure to look for upcoming articles in Curve magazine!

Sweeties, be sure to hit up Babs, aka Ms. Bomb Diggity, to schedule a snorkel outing with me while in Cozumel.

Shout out to United Airlines! They have a brand new direct flight from Los Angeles, Ca to Hilo, Hawai’i.  Less time in the air & MORE magnificent time in the water.

NEXT WEEK: I’ll be posting Part Two of “Becoming Captain Snorkel~Diddie” with video footage & more lessons from the Mother Sea.  Stay tuned! xoxo, ~t

 

 

 

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In honor of Pride Month: a tele-summit for women who love women!

In honor of Pride Month: a tele-summit for women who love women!

 

Dearest T~bugs!

I have a special invitation for you to join me for a series of conversations with amazing women, like Kate Clinton, Merryn Johns, Shannon Wentworth and more, about living your best lesbian (and bi) life!

This eight day internet event is free to my T~bugs, so please sign up and enjoy hours of insightful, empowering conversations.

Enjoy your complimentary access to this event!

My conversation will air on Tuesday, June 26th at 4pm PST; however, I encourage you to listen to ALL of these wonderful women!

This event is special because it’s the first event designed for women who love women to show you how to rock your BEST self forward and live your BEST life.  It’s all about #GoodIsness!!!

 

Your lesbian experts are:

  • Kate Clinton — Lesbian icon and political humorist
  • Merryn Johns — Editor in Chief — Curve Magazine
  • Nicole Breedlove — CEO and President of OurSistaCircle. A social networking website for lesbians of color worldwide.
  • Pauline Miriam — Founder and CEO — Hot Flash Dance Parties, LLC
  • Liz Margolies, LCSW — Founder and Executive Director – National LGBT Cancer Network
  • Traci Dinwiddie — Actress, Yogini, African Drummer, Part-time Bad Ass and Full Time Fruit Cake
  • Shannon Wentworth — CEO and founding partner of Sweet, a lesbian travel company
  • Dr. Frankie Bashan — Founder and CEO of Little Gay Book – Matchmaker, Therapist and Dating Coach
  • Mimi Gonzalez — Cuban-Italian American and a professional comedian of almost twenty years
  • Carolyn Gage — lesbian feminist playwright, performer, director, and activist and Lambda Award winner
  • Kathy Belge — Activist, Journalist and Guide to all things Lesbian on About.com
  • Aliya Hallim-Byne — Founder of Wonder Women, Relationship Coach and Matchmaker.
  • DJ Jodi Dustin — Rocking New England with T-dances for women and their families
  • Poppy Champlin — Comedian, Improv Artist and a member of the Queer Queens of Comedy
  • Barb Elgin, MSW, LSCW — Relationship and Dating Coaching for Single Lesbians and Lesbian Couples, Founder and Host of Lesbian Love Talk Radio Show
This is your chance to learn more about how to get and stay healthy, improve your relationships, get started on creating that business you’ve been dreaming about, and learn how to be an effective community builder. This is also a great opportunity to energize yourself with positive, powerful female energy.

 
It’s time for you to live your most wild and precious life. Join us, and step into the life of your dreams.

Enjoy your complimentary access to this event!

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My First Trapeze Cabaret!

My First Trapeze Cabaret!

 

Training for this Cabaret felt much like falling in love…  It hurt sooooo good!  There were many mistakes, many gorgeous treasures found along the way as I fumbled into this mysterious & utterly magnetic craft.  I felt raw & emotional as I spent hours twisting & turning, hanging & nearly falling…  It was worth it.  It IS worth it.  I believe I may have found something to build upon for the rest of my life.

Thank you, Arnica!  Thank you, Epsom salts! Thank you, Nina Simone.  Without you, my training for this Cabaret would have come to a fast halt.  Most importantly~ Thank you, my Dear One.  You inspire me every day.  This piece, entitled “True Love”, is absolutely dedicated to you.  Yours, ~t

 

 

 

 

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Pearl Jam Seeps Into My Bones!

Pearl Jam Seeps Into My Bones!

 

We have an upcoming Cabaret show at my Circus school so, I took some time to practice my technique on the Trapeze bar in search of a performance.  I’d been attempting a few different variations of moves for about 30 minutes, taping each of my attempts to see what looked interesting.  Nothing was working.  I just couldn’t FEEL it. My body was bored with the repetition.  My heart was too.

I moved into the front studio and stepped up to a new bar thinking that a geographical change might help.  What I was not expecting was the perfect timing of an old, beloved Pearl Jam song to start playing on my last round.  Something happened!  I was inspired.  As you watch the vid below, you’ll see when the music starts to seep into my bones and technique falls away.  My body instinctively began to dance.  It was, by far, NOT perfect.  I made tons of mistakes; however, they became my little found treasures as I continued to explore the flow.  I was alive, and my mantra was “YES and…”!  You may also notice while watching this vid that as soon as someone came to grab their ipod from the music box, the party was quickly over. 😉


Each day I write a gratitude list to try and keep myself in a good, gracious state.  Music often makes top of my list.  This time, Pearl Jam got the gold gratitude star!

 

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